Maladjustment can be painful.

I have not blogged for over two weeks. I have been blogging in my head............(I wonder if other bloggers hold conversations with themselves that way too?) but have not managed to pull anything together that seemed to be right to share. It is easy to make the small adjustments, to take on the small practical steps and they are easy to talk about. Somethings about this just now are more personal to me, and not always right to pour out on other folks.

I spoke in church two weeks ago. Yep the sermon bit and yep kind of a scary place to be. I found it hard to pull my thoughts together and hear exactly what was the right thing to say. I had been really challenged by Proverbs chapter 3. Really worth a read even if you are not normally into the bible. I tried to share the challenges in that chapter for how we live our lives. It was only three days later, in a conversation with my brother where I was making it very clear that I would never again be speaking in church......... that it became clear that actually I was talking about maladjustment, about living a life that is radical, that makes a difference and I truly believe that is most possible when God is the very life source.
My problem just now is that I have got so insanely busy that I need to become maladjusted to myself and my learned behaviour patterns and that is a painful process.
I had a physio appointment this week to look at the mass of pains around my shoulders. She was one of these matter of fact people. "Your posture is horrible" being my favourite line. It appears that all my muscles in that area are having to work full time to maintain that level of horribleness and they are now at the point of protesting much. The cure to this maladjustment? I have a number of exercises and I have to lie on my back on the floor for twenty minutes and let my shoulders move towards the floor. Lie still for twenty minutes.............. she clearly does not know me!
I am away to do the ironing!